Life as I know it has been HECTIC recently, so this past weekend, I took myself down to the Gulf Coast for a bit of “degaussing.” Having grown up in that area, it’s always been a happy place/de-stressing place/thinking place for me, and this time was no different. I took my journal with me, like always, and sought out the least-populated stretches of sand, like always, so I could meander and process. (Hi, my name is Pellucere, and I like long walks on the beach…)
Eventually, I came to the Quintana fishing jetty, and it hit me suddenly that I had never once walked its entire, 3/5-mile-plus length. I had a strong compulsion to do so, which was quickly countered by a mental litany of all sorts of reasons why I shouldn’t (you’ll get to the end and be swamped by the breaking waves and swept away into the muddy, brown Gulf. You’ll drop your phone in the water while trying to take pictures. It’s a pain to get saltwater off your sunglasses. Your mp3 player will get soaked. You’ll lose your car keys. NO ONE ELSE IS DOING IT!)
I am not generally a fearful person, and frankly, all these thoughts ticked me off. I mean, really. You know how sometimes you hear stuff in your head that you just KNOW isn’t you? It struck me as an opportune time to take all those vain imaginations captive, and so I did. Even so, as I began to walk out past the few fishermen perched on the first third of the jetty, I found myself stopped a few times, standing and watching the waves crash over its end. But as I kept going, I realized that the breakers were landing directly in front of me or directly behind me. Not once did I get more than wet feet.
I heard the Lord speak to me as I walked. He said, “I will keep you safe. The spray is all that will hit you, and it won’t bother you at all. In fact, you will be refreshed. You will thrive in it.” I felt like He meant this for my life in general, and the jetty walk was really just an illustration, an exercise in choosing to trust Him, rather than let irrational fears rule me. And I had to laugh when I finally reached the end — there was a large, green sign declaring this to be Jetty #7. Green represents new life, and 7 is the number of completion. I felt like I’d completed one phase or level and been promoted to a new one.
So many people I know are in a season of learning what it means to walk by faith and not by sight. Where we thought we had an understanding of this before, there’s a new intensity to the lesson that makes me sure we’re being prepared for things we can’t even imagine. If you find yourself in this season, blind and unable to hear, full of uncertainty and strange fears, maybe rethinking everything you ever thought you knew, rest assured that you absolutely are not alone. Take comfort in the fact that the Lord believes in YOU enough to stretch you a little further, teach you a little more. Be proud that He thinks you capable of the hard assignments. Think of it as an honors class in more ways than one. 🙂
Can’t wait to see where I walk next!